>>38898
As pathetic and provocative as it sounds (but it doesn't matter, I'm anonymous, so I'm not exactly proving anything to anyone), when I go to sleep, instead of counting sheep, I imagine a line of people standing in front of each other, holding a gun and I count myself shooting the captives in the head one by one.
I'll think of ways how can I create a machine that could genocide thousands of people really quickly without leaving any evidence behind.
I'm not a psychopath, nor a sadist. I think I do this because it requires extreme concentration and imagination which allows me to drift to sleep.