>>38651
Fair, I don't recommend it for obvious reasons. However, I was severely abused as a child (not sexually, but physically and emotionally, one time I had hot coffee thrown at me when I was a kid, for example, in fact it was only because I was pale the abuse subsided at least physically because bruises would show up easily, and my parents couldn't make me take sick days off school without the authorities getting involved, once the school holidays began, however, it was beating time again) and I actually really like cats so for me, watching these cat torture videos was a way for me to relate and make the trauma belong more to me, if that makes sense?
I used to also write a lot of fucked up stories as a kid about cats being tortured, like one time I wrote a story where one of the chapters involved a small kitten being abandoned by his mother and at one point he lost a leg because a butcher (not Chinese, I wasn't aware of the meme at the time) decided to butcher it alive before it managed to escape, although I myself never felt like hurting animals myself.
Another story I wrote was about a mother cat and her kittens being tortured and beaten up, and I was so stupid I even showed that to my English teacher I felt really proud of the story and my teacher was visibly concerned but said that it was an okay story, minus the violence.
One time, I had a crush on a girl, and she really liked cats too, so I share