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This post might sound defensive, that tends to be the nature of written text. You cannot decipher the writer's tone, but do know that I'm not angry or have my panties in a twist over this. I figure it would be helpful to explain my point of view, as it could help you understand why I do what I do.
I will confirm once again that I will never do porn; it's not something that interests me to create. While I understand a majority of people may only enjoy my content because of my perceived sexual value, it's not something I personally hold myself to as I just create what I think is fun/funny, I don't think to myself "I hope they think I look sexy, I hope I turn people on, everyone only likes me because of my looks", so I don't let potential sexual value equate to my worth and I don't operate as such.
This theory all stems around my gender being female, thus I instantly have certain typical female traits or habits associated with me due to my gender. I don't hold many of those typical female traits one would find with a woman posting videos on the internet for validation. Typically we see these women desperate for male validation, posting selfies, personally communicating with men to give them the idea they have a chance, too stupid to make money so they get an Onlyfans and are too stupid to operate an Onlyfans, etc. The typical pipeline we see today.
I am here solely for fun and to create what I think are funny videos along with occasionally talk about interesting things happening in my life. None of it is a rally to garner sexual validation, if it was you would likely see me have some form of social media in which I post cute selfies/videos, as that would garner upmost validation in terms of likes, views, and especially comments. This genuinely is not of interest to me, but since I'm female I am assigned to the thought that I must ultimately be seeking sexual validation. I think this idea that "I'm inching closer to being sexual" comes from my skits, in which I'm playing a character who has sexual qualities, e.x. a prostitute (Derrick's Mom) or a maybe-gay-guy getting raped by a ghost. If I was a male, I would definitely act these scenes out just as I would as a female, but I think the idea that "he's doing it for sexual validation" "he's getting ready for an onlyfans" would be out the window due to his gender. It would just be funny. I do such things because it fits the video and character, but as "me" I'm not doing such things. I also am not easily censored on my website, giving me more room to do raunchier things than one could on Youtube.
I realize that males are visual creatures, so what looks sexual is sexual. I'm female and I personally process what's sexual in a funny video, what a character does (boob pushing up/ghost rape), to be part of that character and not associated with what I personally do. For example, Derrick farting on the bed disgusts me, whereas a male who is a visual creature could pause the video and "make it work". I'm not saying that's wrong; but I personally operate differently and won't acquiesce to "I can't do XYZ because people will sexualize it". I'm probably too relaxed on the whole situation, which isn't typical, so it seems like I am fishing or desperate, when in reality I just don't really care if people do or don't sexualize me. I just do what I think is funny.
A character on SNL playing Donald Trump does not think and act like Donald Trump in their personal life; it's part of the character. I personally separate the sexual jokes, boob pushing up and ghost rape specifically, to be part of the video's joke. I don't do it to fish out sexually validating comments in regards to how cute/sexy my pert perky tits are or how juicy my latina ass and pink asshole are, as I don't need outside validation. Actually I wasn't online for the past 2-ish weeks because I had some other things I was doing, so I definitely don't live drip-fed by online validation. Though if I was one to thrive off of sexual validation, it would only be right to assume that an OnlyFans would be next.
>but ashley you do post pictures (stock images) / videos where youre cute
That's just what I look like, if you think I'm cute then that's nice. I'm not one of these chicks who shoves my tits out and says "dont sexualize me boiz!!!" I just need to clarify that sexuality can be funny without opening up an Onlyfans account the next day. There were good looking girls on MadTV and sometimes they would wear skimpy outfits, because it made whatever they were doing funnier or it matched the character's personality. I doubt it reflects that they desperately wanted sexual validation from the viewers.
Long story short; jokes and characters are in the funny videos to make a joke. You'll notice my "me" videos don't enforce much sexuality at all, as it's not something I am personally looking to do. The sexual aspects (boob pushing up and ghost rape) are just part of the funny videos. There won't be any porn, no OnlyFans, but I would sometime in my life like to write and direct a B movie. I'd like to do one kid's one where a dog is the main character, and then a R rated bro comedy B movie like Sex Pot.
If this post sounds angry or defensive; that's genuinely not the tone or feeling I have behind this post. Here's an emoticon to prove my emotion. (づ ◕‿◕ )づ