>>2821
>than the circumstantiality in the way she talks about it.
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“Hello, okay, this going to be a not very funny or anything video, it's just going to be me talking, giving you some inside look into this head, and then into your head. I’m not very good at explaining this stuff ‘cause I sound like a toddler talking to another toddler. But today somebody was talking to me, said something that got them thinking, that got me thinking, that’s gonna get you thinking. Um, basically, what they said which I thought was a thing that applied to both of us, maybe it doesn’t, I dunno, is um, just feeling emotionally done and drained of some certain things. Now in my case that’d just be, um, I don’t really feel much sadness, or depressed. I mean, I can and I do, but things that would normally impact somebody to feel that usually don’t me. Um, which is weird because in my life I’ve never really been, um, like depressed or sad. Except for two years ago and a little bit of last year which was a constant stream of feeling that. Um, and what got to that point I'm not too sure but I do know that a big starting point for people is when they start to like unlock the thing of thinking realistically, and it is a good thing to think realistically, and not set goals too high or be overly confident of anything, but I feel like thinking realistically kinda brings somebody down because they think of all these different possibilities that may happen that won’t. Um, and that just like over time just - go from being a happy frog to a sad frog, a very sad frog. And uh, that’s like I said, I'm not too sure if that’s what happened to me but when I was a sad frog, I think it was like almost an overnight thing, I became a happy frog. Um, and I don’t know why. Like when you feel depressed or whatever, people always say everybody feels that way in their life, it's normal and I feel like that’s just a thing for them to ignore you and not help. Which is why I’m so open of if you feel that way, just throw a wall of text at me and I will listen. But I mean that’s that, um, cause uh, I don’t know your experience or like what you’re feeling but I could somewhat relate from my experience. I don’t know if I'd be, like, overly open about me, I mean like I don't know. What I said should be enough, I think. And yeah, I mean, but to the emotional drain part like what gets you to that point of just feeling done because after I became a happy frog I kinda just stayed that and never really became a sad frog from being impacted by things most people would be, as I’ve said. Um, which is just weird to me. I don’t want to be a sociopath or anything at all. I mean I feel like I care about people, but a lot of people tell me that I don’t and that I’m super self centered which I try not to be. I’m sorry if I am, and if I am, just snap your finger at me and tell me and I’ll stop being on me all the time cause it's just how I am, I guess. But I don’t know, I get told all these different things. Me, me, me, and I notice I’m talking all about me right now because you’re watching a video. There's probably a hundred different people watching this video and I can't directly talk to you unless you message me and then we’ll talk about you. But I mean, I guess just kinda like apply what I said to your life and if you’ve felt just emotionally done, drained things like that. I dunno. Thinkin’ bout life. But I mean I guess things are going pretty okay right now. But tonight’s been like a weird night so that’s why I’m just saying this. Anyways… yeah.”